Worthy
When I was four you attempted to deem me
worthless
Like broken shards of glass,
I was irreparable
Like mud stained on white canvas,
I was tainted
Like thin air,
I was invisible
you diagnosed me
"Disposable"
you used his lips to fall on mine
your lies twisted Truth in both our minds
you took control of his grip
and took advantage of our innocence
your whispers told him he was in control
your words told me I would always be in danger
you took something beautiful from us
and left shame in exchange
A simple memory I forced myself to forget
though the details vanished
your lies remained
thick.
too close for comfort
a constant state of paranoia for two decades
like a conniving snake
you celebrated my masquerades
you chortled at my failed attempts
to hide my inner demons
I believed you for far too long
I felt overlooked
unheard
repulsive
and worthless
you won for quite some time
a powerful prince you were
as you roamed the earth of my mind
But the King has always been a heavy presence in my life
He came with His sword
ready for battle
He showed up relentlessly
and never stopped fighting for me
Because He saw these days ahead
The days where I would be free
you said no one would look my way
He said I was His dream come true
you whispered worthlessness
He shouted worthy
He exposed your lies
and opened the door of Truth
He said
"Dear one, My daughter, Beloved,
you're far from worthless
I chose the cross for you."
He then placed me in a field of sunflowers
and told me to observe them
"See how they face the Sun?
I want you to live your life in such a way
that you trust every single word I say
Keep your eyes on Me
he may be the prince
but I'm the King of Kings."
your raspy voice now trembles and shakes
you are beginning to realize you don't hold rank
In Him there's no room for fear
so in case I haven't made myself clear
consider this my declaration
there is no room for you
I don't waste my time with princes of this world anymore
I have the King of Kings
And He says I'm His everything
He loves so deep
He loves so wide
He promises security
love, joy, peace
and that's where I'll reside
I believe His Truths
I trust His proclamations
I'm breaking up with shame
no more condemnation
He created me in His image
recorded each of my days in His book
Truth after Truth
further proof I was never overlooked
He gave me life with veins of gasoline
He lit this fire within me
For the sake of freedom He gave me a new name
replaced the bitter with sweet
now I can't be tamed
I'll preach freedom until death
the death you once promised me
But He conquered death a long time ago
He has the victory
I am chosen
I'm made beautiful
I am dearly loved
I am
worthy.
