The Journey to wholeness

Losing weight has been a journey much deeper than eating better and exercising.

Its been a discovery of self…it took Father leading me to His River of Life, showing me my reflection, and saying

“you can keep walking, or you can get in.”

I stepped in, and have never been the same.

Gaining the weight was a symptom of something much deeper, and losing the weight is the product of something much greater.

I hid behind food, netflix, and sleep to avoid confronting pain and having my brokenness exposed. But when I looked into that River, I had to face it all, and I saw that

Father exposes us out of kindness, not cruelty.

Revelation comes before healing- He will never heal us behind our backs- He wants our willing participation in the journey to wholeness.

I’ve come alive.

I’m discovering a woman I never knew existed…one who goes on more adventures, one who tries new things and isn't afraid of failure, one who is learning she loves painting, and reading, and star-gazing, one who listens to her body and honors its needs, who loves free and deep, who is stinkin’ brave, and who is so dang proud to be wholeheartedly herself.

I am losing so much more than 20 pounds (and counting).

I’m losing self-hatred, self-condemnation, unworthiness, shame, hopelessness, defeat….I’m taking up my inheritance, my victory…I’m loving myself, fighting for myself, and believing in myself, more than I ever have before, all because I know that I am loved, fought for, and believed in by Father.